Another story for another souls probably:-

Salam and good morning to all. Well while some of you are already sleeping, Im here, wide awake. After having a cup of coffee made in Netherlands but packet in Australia, it was quite good. Not to mention drinking coffee while eating noodles, "Mamee slurp, baru!" (Quoting from Mamee's commercial) was OK, I guess. For tonight, I wanna talk about people. Yep, I know that I have talked a lot about people but it is like an ongoing learning experience dont you think? Everyday you will see how differently or constant people's actions. 
Eg. a person woke up at 6 am, done his morning prayers, went to work,  lunch, then at 5 pm punched out from work, went home, had dinner with le family, lastly went to sleep, Repeat. 

When Im older, I dont want to be this kind of people. I want to be someone that could make changes whenever I go, someone who could make something from nothing or make something better. Of course this is only a dream but do I have what it takes to be what I said I will be? For now, Im still trying. Some of us tries so hard to be something they are not in order for them to be noticed or accepted by the community. BUT what will you do after that? Would you keep on putting that fake mask of yours that will keeps on consuming you from the inside or you will take off that mask and say, "Hey, this is not what I am so get lost!".

Im not a die hard fan of football but I know a lil bit cause my family is really into football and bowling. So as a growing teen, the topics that keep recurring are either football, games or relationships which are Im quite fond. I met some people that rather stay inside their comfort zone, if they cant join with certain topics, they will make expression of rejections and will never try to mix with that group of people that came up with the topics. What I wanna point out is why dont you try to mix in and see how it goes. Some people tried and you guys wanna know the result? It was funny because they didnt do it because they like it or wanna do it but because they have to. Because they want to feel belonging in that group and they tried so hard just to be accepted by them.
Eg. they dont like something but when their group wanted to do it or what ever, suddenly they can came up with lots of info about it. I was like, "Wow, you really did your homework.", but deep down we all know the truth. You are what you are :)

Then when they have been accepted, they forgotten the people that supports them and push them to help them be better than what they were before. Suddenly they cant tolerate with people's mistakes and advices. Suddenly what ever others say, if "they" dont like it, the others are forever wrong. Instead of trying to understand the situations, what, why, how, NO! If "they" dont like it, then so be it, regardless if others were friends or foes.

A piece of advice, dont let your egos blind your judgments. Open up your mind a lil bit and understand every situations that occur in your life. Life is far more about you and I but more about them. Who are "them"? Well "them"  are everyone and everything. :) 

This is the coffee.

2014:-

Salam and good evening to all. 2013 has passed and now it is time for a new year, new goals and yet the same old me. For these past few months of my absent, I have been observing most things in life and yet all I can say is I am very disappointed and yet thankful. There are too many things that I wanna share and yet so little time.
-If I say like this you can pinch me or what so ever cause I keep on telling people that we control time and not the other way around.

So for today Im gonna start with one of my goals for this year:- I will stop dwelling with the things that I can't change anymore.
For these past few years all I did was keep on taking in people's craps that they can not change due to their own flaws. They did not even try and yet they already assumed the consequences. Life is all about taking risks and chances, if you never ever try to put up with the challenges given to you, how would you gonna learn and be someone better than you have ever been?
I really hate these kind of people that keep on saying "Im sorry Im not good enough, not a good friend and etc." Well if you are not good enough, why dont you try to be better? Instead of keep blaming yourself and then repeat the same mistakes. I call it stupid.

It is not like I hate them 100% or something, I hate them for not being able to keep on trying and just gave up half the way knowing they have failed and yet they can embrace it like it was something they were destined to be. Let me tell you a story about how I try for the SUKMA's selection. I, 20 years old, and it was my first time entering such huge competition. I think that I was too old for this kind of stuff but my coach told me that I should gain the experience eventhough deep down I know I wouldnt stand a chance. It was held at Pasir Gudang Bowling, Daiman Bowling and lastly at Summit, Batu Pahat. 3 days, 3 places, 30 games!!! Do you know how crazy and tiring that was?! The first 2 days I was at the bottom in male's category. I was beaten by most of the kids below my age and even GIRLS! even the lowest ranked girl managed to score higher than me. I kept on thinking of giving up but I kept my faith high and I knew God will help me if I try my best.

On the last day, they announced that the players will be grouped based on ranks, so automatically I will be on the last lane cause Im the last. When they were announcing each player's name, suddenly during my turn, they highlighted "AND LASTLY, Abdul Rasyid..." but they didnt highlight the last girl. I could see they smirked at me. Did I gave up? No, I felt really fired up and I want to prove them that their arrogance will kill them. I know I was worst cause will you ever meet any SUKMA's selection candidates that score 100-130. Apparently you will not cause that was only me! We suppose to maintain average of 180+ and my average were 123 and 132 LMAO! Our games were divided by 2 phases, 6 in the morning and 6 more in the evening = 12 games. The first 6 games were my best! First I scored 135 and I was a bit disappointed but then I tried again and thus I managed to get 175, 192, 224, 168, and 17+. My average is 178. I returned my score sheet to the person in charged. I can see from the look on their face, they were quite shocked! HAHAHA in your face jerk! *I said to myself lah of course :D*

Then after we finished our breaks, we continued for the next round. This round I dropped a lil bit but still I kept my consistency. My scores were 150+, 190+, 170+, 150+,150+ and 134. I think so, I didnt managed to screenshot the score sheet cause my phone ran out of power. My total average for the whole 12 games if Im not mistaken was 160+. You know, the persons that laughed at me before stood behind my lane and I can see they were watching me, maybe they were thinking I was cheating. At the end of the day, my scores couldnt cover up the first 2 days but I was not at the bottom, I was number 3 from bottom which to me was quite impressive cause I practiced for only 16 days while they have been played since they were so young.

The point is you should never lose your faith and keep on trying. For 16 days I have failed and couldnt even get 150+ consistently but still I went to the tournament and tried. SO dont give excuses for the things that you know you can change and work hard, play hard, live.... well. :D

thanks for reading this long post. Here's a potato. -9Gag