Regret:-

Good day peeps and Salam to my Muslims' brothers and sisters. This fasting month I am sure many of you are excited for the upcoming Hari Raya. Have you guys bought your Baju Raya? I am sure I have :D.

Anyway today I am gonna share a bit about myself again. Well it is my blog...right? XD Ermm well actually I have lost for a while. It's kindda weird when at one time you have all the ideas that you want to share but then when you have the chance to share it, you have no idea what are you gonna say. Ok as appetizers I am gonna share you some feedback I received from my friends and readers. Many of my friends asked me why does my posts mostly in English. Simple,my aim is nationwide readers. Hahahaha I know it is funny but that's the thing. I want my posts to be read by all the people in this world and who knows one day I will be rich and famous. I hope that my post might help others to think differently about this world, about their lives and how they see life. I dont care about what other people said about my blog, I take them as compliments and lessons for me to improve. I love to speak in English as I said in my previous posts. Whenever you write in English, the meaning can be diverse and it is hard for people to interpret what you are actually saying so they need to understand a bit more and focus on what you have said. Aren't that FUN! :D

By the way, you guys might noticed my blog is simple and maybe outdated, old fashioned or what so ever but the thing about me is that, I prefer to live old school style because I really miss the old days, I live by the memories of the past so my presents will still be my past and my future will cherish my past and have a bit of it.

Life tips my friend, never put your trust in someone unless he or she is your family. Never ever truly trust someone until they become part of your life. People is good with words but not many can stick to what they said. I admit I am one of them. :(

Based on my experiences, I noticed that people tend to forget those who are always there with them through ups and downs when they have met new friends but I AM NOT LIKE THAT! The thing that's really hurts me is when I am trying to be the best friend ever but then my friends treat me completely the other way around. Most of them will find me whenever they need something or when they are lonely. Perhaps....this is my what I should deserve for all the Sinsthat I had committed. Doesn't matter how far I go, I would never escape my pasts.

I used to be a carefree person until one day, I become more sensitive from time to time. It really hurts when there is no term for "friend in need is the best friend indeed".

Sometimes I get jealous whenever I see some of my friends that have friends-forever type of friends. Get it? :D

I am still thankful for having such good friends even they are not as many as other people have.

p/s: Sorry for many grammatical errors. I am still improving my English and hopefully I can be more fluent to speak and write in this magnificent language :)

2011, my old schoolmates. Miss you all.

2011, first year in Universiti Teknologi Mara (UiTM).

2010, final year of high school. :D

2010, during physical education.

2010, FINAL EXAMS FOR FINAL YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL! :D

2009, Annual Scout Dinner with starts from left, Azim, Safwan and ME! :D

There is no fresh start:-

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak my friends and Happy Fasting.

Greetings peeps. It has been a while since my last post ya. I mean it is really a while! There are so many things that happen to me these past few months. Everyday is a new adventure aye? but my adventures are not quite amusing. I have gone through a lot since i was little. I have faced many social problems but I still can stand till this very fine day. What I want to say for today is that why I could never learn to appreciate what I have and now all hopes seems lost.

My brother has furthered his studies in US, and I could not come to send him at the airport because I was having my lectures. Now, I regret for not being there to see him. Eventhough, we always argue when we were little but as we get olde

r, all that arguments were memories that needed to be cherish. Sometimes I feel a bit awkward when I am having a conversation with my brother because we never had real conversations until we all finished our high schools. Why? Well during high school, he attended boarding school and I was just in a normal, standard high school. I really miss being a kid again but I know my wish will never be granted until the day I die. What ever happens, I do love my brother very much. I could not say this to him directly cause he will feel a bit uneasy but what the hec

k, I post it here, so maybe one day he will read this. I am sorry for all the mistakes that I caused, my brother, but I do care bout you.

I remember at one time, I was being the smarty-pants because I got good grades during my primary schools. Now look at you my brother. You have surpassed me in any other way that you can. Congrats my brother. It is true, I do feel a bit jealous sometimes, but I am glad that you have become someone worth to our family and someone who others acknowledged. Do not become like me, keep on repeating

the same mistakes over and over again.

I love you my brother and I pray for your success doesn't matter where you are, I will be there for you if you need your older brother.

Another person that I still dont know how to appreciate is Raen. If you read my older posts then you will know who this person is. I could not say exactly why I have changed drastically. My heart seems to be empty and now I am heartless. I am not completely heartless but my sensitivity are not for her anymore but for friends. I do not know why. I am still not giving up as I am still there for her but I could not make the option. I choose to leave everything to Faith. I know others will hate me, and some of them already admitted but I still can not give them the reasons why I did this. I still cannot explain it to her.

My own words finally consumed me. You may know their stories but you will never know the reasons for that stories so stop making judgments and helps make good impressions.

I always make everything worst. I never listen to what she wants to say but now, when I give a bit of my time to her then I knew. Everyone have their own problems guys. Pay attention and try to listen. So I try to help her in any way that I knew based on my experiences. Hopefully, may God can help her and shield her from any harms in this world that is cruel by filthy humans.

Lastly, There is no fresh start:- because everytime you think this is your fresh start, you will make another fresh start all over again some day.

This is for you my brother. Singapore, 2008 :)

This one is for you Raen . Even though we are together or not, I will celebrate this moment throughout the rest of my life because you have taught me many lessons but I am still a very stubborn and arrogant person that you know ya? Arigato Gozaimas.