Greetings peeps. It has been a while since my last post ya. I mean it is really a while! There are so many things that happen to me these past few months. Everyday is a new adventure aye? but my adventures are not quite amusing. I have gone through a lot since i was little. I have faced many social problems but I still can stand till this very fine day. What I want to say for today is that why I could never learn to appreciate what I have and now all hopes seems lost.
My brother has furthered his studies in US, and I could not come to send him at the airport because I was having my lectures. Now, I regret for not being there to see him. Eventhough, we always argue when we were little but as we get olde
r, all that arguments were memories that needed to be cherish. Sometimes I feel a bit awkward when I am having a conversation with my brother because we never had real conversations until we all finished our high schools. Why? Well during high school, he attended boarding school and I was just in a normal, standard high school. I really miss being a kid again but I know my wish will never be granted until the day I die. What ever happens, I do love my brother very much. I could not say this to him directly cause he will feel a bit uneasy but what the hec
k, I post it here, so maybe one day he will read this. I am sorry for all the mistakes that I caused, my brother, but I do care bout you.
I remember at one time, I was being the smarty-pants because I got good grades during my primary schools. Now look at you my brother. You have surpassed me in any other way that you can. Congrats my brother. It is true, I do feel a bit jealous sometimes, but I am glad that you have become someone worth to our family and someone who others acknowledged. Do not become like me, keep on repeating
the same mistakes over and over again.
I love you my brother and I pray for your success doesn't matter where you are, I will be there for you if you need your older brother.
Another person that I still dont know how to appreciate is Raen. If you read my older posts then you will know who this person is. I could not say exactly why I have changed drastically. My heart seems to be empty and now I am heartless. I am not completely heartless but my sensitivity are not for her anymore but for friends. I do not know why. I am still not giving up as I am still there for her but I could not make the option. I choose to leave everything to Faith. I know others will hate me, and some of them already admitted but I still can not give them the reasons why I did this. I still cannot explain it to her.
My own words finally consumed me. You may know their stories but you will never know the reasons for that stories so stop making judgments and helps make good impressions.
I always make everything worst. I never listen to what she wants to say but now, when I give a bit of my time to her then I knew. Everyone have their own problems guys. Pay attention and try to listen. So I try to help her in any way that I knew based on my experiences. Hopefully, may God can help her and shield her from any harms in this world that is cruel by filthy humans.
Lastly, There is no fresh start:- because everytime you think this is your fresh start, you will make another fresh start all over again some day.
This is for you my brother. Singapore, 2008 :)
This one is for you Raen . Even though we are together or not, I will celebrate this moment throughout the rest of my life because you have taught me many lessons but I am still a very stubborn and arrogant person that you know ya? Arigato Gozaimas.
My heart seems to be empty and now I am heartless. I am not completely heartless but my sensitivity are not for her anymore but for friends.
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