Improvement for myself:-

Assalamualaikum and a very good morning to all. Today I want to talk about almost everything :D. I have told you guys before that I would actively writing new posts but as you can see from the last post of mine which was a bit long time ago, I still can not commit myself to fully writing blog. As you can see, I am not a person that would waste my time talking nonsense. I created this blog with great ambition which is to spread my ideas to those who read my blog. I feel like I am gonna start my own empire where my ideas can be accepted by people in this world. What ideas would that be hurm? Well for example, I would like to change the perspectives of people that would simply discriminate and judge others based on their race, wealth and so much more. I live in a multi-racial country and I hope for the best in it but most of the people nowadays seem to disrespect others. We have law here, we have the constitutions that were agreed during the creation of Malaysia. The way I see it, those people who understand the concept of why constitutions are created tends to be more respectful towards others and yet become successful with his own hardwork to achieve what he is today.

As you can see today, most people are born with hatred to discriminate with or without the effects of the constitutions. It is like people are trying to find the reasons to start a war between race in this country. We can achieve so much better just with respect and harmony. I admit Malaysia will not be improved as what it is today without the help of its countrymen but people, are you willing to bring back the tragedy that almost destroyed the harmony that most of us trying to create? If you give the reason that other race is being bullied or being brought down by my race, by the constitution, then why most of my friends that are not my race already became successful. When I ask them, they do not care about race or constitution, they only care for their future which is why they struggling in their studies, getting straight A's during school and now they have been offered with tons of scholarships with their own hardwork. If the peace and harmony that we have now are broken, it will not only satisfy your hatred and desire to destroy the constitution but Malaysia, its own, will be torn apart and might not even call a country anymore. Do you want such consequences to happen? I love having multi-racial friends, I could even improve my language skills with them as you all know, most of my race speak in "Bahasa Malaysia". See, we even not call it "Bahasa Melayu" anymore. I sincerely can tolerate with others for the greater good but please respect the boundaries that have been created in the constitution that's all I ask my friends :)

This is a breakfast for your mind. Try to think about it, take a second or even more to think what would we be if we are not bound by laws and boundaries.

Fools to those who do not learn but stupid is those who can not accept fools are better. 

Teenagers:-

Assalamualaikum, and a very good evening dearest readers. Hahah sounds a bit formal eh? Well I know I said that I would update my blog regularly but as you all know, being a university student is quite stressful and I did not have enough time of doing many things that I wanted to do. For now after a long break from blogging well here I am today.

I would like to share about my opinions regarding our youths nowadays. As we all know, youths these days are getting worst and worst. For example, everybody have their own facebook account am I right? and you all can join into variety of groups that are presented there. I am in a group. I will not mention the group's name but I want to express my deepest regret for the people inside that group. There was this person, a girl, who posted her pictures almost half naked and you can see the part of her chest. The thing that really bothers me was nobody in that group tryied to advice her or "bash" her for posting such almost nude picture. Boys and girls, all they commented was "oh so nice body", "oh so sexy", and I was like wtf man. This group should be appropriate for teens and these kind of circumstances really gets on my nerve. So, I did my part, I commented on her pictures by giving a little bit of advice, twice actually and yet most of the people there trying to argue with me but the thing about me is whenever I think I am right, I would stand up for my opinions until the very end. The last thing I could remember was most of the members there, still praising this "cheap" girl and this girl does not feel offended at all by my sarcasms. BUT, I respect the admin of this group. Later on, I noticed that the admin also did not like these kind of events and he directly deleted the post and any other related posts. Faith in Humanity has been RESTORED. >_<

I know that nowadays many girls like to post their nude pictures but what really pissed me off is the girls are mostly, ISLAM! I am not a very Religious person but whenever I want to commit sins, I would keep it between me and Allah and I will try not to show it publicly or directly to people. Well maybe sometimes I showed it but not like this. Not from posting directly on media where the whole world can see me committed sins and inappropriate stuffs. We are the eastern people, so come on. We should not followed what the western people do. We have our pride and dignity. If you wanted to do something awful or bad, make sure you keep it between yourself. I really pity for these kind of persons and the mentality of the people around them.

One more thing that I noticed, was most of the time, people would like to comment on trash, nude, or stupid jokes status compared to religious or advices-kind of status. Come on people. WHERE DID YOU PUT YOUR MIND AT??

Btw, another thing that really makes me laugh is when I see most of the youths trying to short-formed every words and they sound completely like a retard. I am sorry for my disrespectful word but why do you have to put everything so unnecessarily short? Is it wrong to type in a complete sentences? Well that is all for today my friend. If my words offended some of you, I am sorry but a piece of advice, "Do learn from other people's mistake so you will not commit yours".  

Loneliness:-

Today, I want to share about my mistake. The same mistake that I kept doing over and over again. Letting go of someone who truly understands me because....I still dont know what I want. Now, I'm left all alone. I have some problems with a few of my friends. I don't know what's wrong because suddenly they treated me differently. When we met, we usually talked and laughed or atleast they would noticed me but suddenly a few days ago I noticed, they seems to ignore me. If I have done something offensive atleast they could tell me but do not treat me like this.  Everything seems to fall apart and as each day passed, I seems to care less about anything anymore. When I care less about something, I thought I would be happier, but NO! I feel empty and dying inside.

I don't want to share my problems with anyone cause there is nobody that worth sharing except that 1 person whom I have left. I could not lie, that some parts of me still think about her even most of me just want to let her go. Who am I kidding, I am such a jerk. Right now, I have lost a few friends due to my straight-forward honesty. I told them about how they should treat others properly. Don't take people for granted and find them just when you need something. Maybe they couldn't accept the fact of having a friend like myself that told them about their mistakes. I did that so they would not make the same mistakes that I made, instead all they saw was I am not a good friend. I heard a quote, "Do not chase people who you want to spend time with, if they want to spend their time with you, you wont be chasing".

People always mistaken our intentions. Sometimes when we are doing the right thing, people often look it as a fault. We can not pleased these kind of people so what we should do? Just pray for their happiness :)
Talk is easy but do we have courage to act? DO we have the courage to just ignore the people that once close to us and DO we have the courage to just let them walk away knowingly they are at fault? The truth is, I do not. I keep hoping that everything will be ok again or they will change. One thing I want to remind us all, What goes around, Comes around. The pain, the suffering that I caused to Raen, are now returning back to me. I accept my weaknesses which I could not be grateful most of the time, that is why you are better off without me.

You may see me smiling, may see me happy with the people I call "friends" but truthfully, I am not. My happiness has perished since the day I realized to let you go. My trust to people has decreased but my hope never dies. I keep on hoping every single day for things to turn out just fine. Hoping to have friends with Benefits and not for Benefits and hoping to make you happy again like the 1st time when you were with me.
The term "friends" does not refer to my high school friends or my childhood friends ya. They all ROCK!

Deep down, I am glad that people could use me. I could make others happy even they using me for their own interests. Maybe it is my duty to give happiness to others while losing mine. Hopefully, you can see how I feel inside and not how I act. I am sorry for my post being dull and unhappy, but hey, this is me. My emotions can easily changed and that is why some people call me over sensitive. DO remember sensitive is hard to find these days. From sensitive, we will know how to treat others respectfully and thoughtfully, from sensitive we will know how to appreciate other people, but this sensitivity is what people call weaknesses and that is why they avoided people who are sensitive. They all wanted a friend that can have fun all the time, but without sensitivity how would you find someone that will be there when you are in grief and sad? How awfully stupid.

Regret:-

Good day peeps and Salam to my Muslims' brothers and sisters. This fasting month I am sure many of you are excited for the upcoming Hari Raya. Have you guys bought your Baju Raya? I am sure I have :D.

Anyway today I am gonna share a bit about myself again. Well it is my blog...right? XD Ermm well actually I have lost for a while. It's kindda weird when at one time you have all the ideas that you want to share but then when you have the chance to share it, you have no idea what are you gonna say. Ok as appetizers I am gonna share you some feedback I received from my friends and readers. Many of my friends asked me why does my posts mostly in English. Simple,my aim is nationwide readers. Hahahaha I know it is funny but that's the thing. I want my posts to be read by all the people in this world and who knows one day I will be rich and famous. I hope that my post might help others to think differently about this world, about their lives and how they see life. I dont care about what other people said about my blog, I take them as compliments and lessons for me to improve. I love to speak in English as I said in my previous posts. Whenever you write in English, the meaning can be diverse and it is hard for people to interpret what you are actually saying so they need to understand a bit more and focus on what you have said. Aren't that FUN! :D

By the way, you guys might noticed my blog is simple and maybe outdated, old fashioned or what so ever but the thing about me is that, I prefer to live old school style because I really miss the old days, I live by the memories of the past so my presents will still be my past and my future will cherish my past and have a bit of it.

Life tips my friend, never put your trust in someone unless he or she is your family. Never ever truly trust someone until they become part of your life. People is good with words but not many can stick to what they said. I admit I am one of them. :(

Based on my experiences, I noticed that people tend to forget those who are always there with them through ups and downs when they have met new friends but I AM NOT LIKE THAT! The thing that's really hurts me is when I am trying to be the best friend ever but then my friends treat me completely the other way around. Most of them will find me whenever they need something or when they are lonely. Perhaps....this is my what I should deserve for all the Sinsthat I had committed. Doesn't matter how far I go, I would never escape my pasts.

I used to be a carefree person until one day, I become more sensitive from time to time. It really hurts when there is no term for "friend in need is the best friend indeed".

Sometimes I get jealous whenever I see some of my friends that have friends-forever type of friends. Get it? :D

I am still thankful for having such good friends even they are not as many as other people have.

p/s: Sorry for many grammatical errors. I am still improving my English and hopefully I can be more fluent to speak and write in this magnificent language :)

2011, my old schoolmates. Miss you all.

2011, first year in Universiti Teknologi Mara (UiTM).

2010, final year of high school. :D

2010, during physical education.

2010, FINAL EXAMS FOR FINAL YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL! :D

2009, Annual Scout Dinner with starts from left, Azim, Safwan and ME! :D

There is no fresh start:-

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak my friends and Happy Fasting.

Greetings peeps. It has been a while since my last post ya. I mean it is really a while! There are so many things that happen to me these past few months. Everyday is a new adventure aye? but my adventures are not quite amusing. I have gone through a lot since i was little. I have faced many social problems but I still can stand till this very fine day. What I want to say for today is that why I could never learn to appreciate what I have and now all hopes seems lost.

My brother has furthered his studies in US, and I could not come to send him at the airport because I was having my lectures. Now, I regret for not being there to see him. Eventhough, we always argue when we were little but as we get olde

r, all that arguments were memories that needed to be cherish. Sometimes I feel a bit awkward when I am having a conversation with my brother because we never had real conversations until we all finished our high schools. Why? Well during high school, he attended boarding school and I was just in a normal, standard high school. I really miss being a kid again but I know my wish will never be granted until the day I die. What ever happens, I do love my brother very much. I could not say this to him directly cause he will feel a bit uneasy but what the hec

k, I post it here, so maybe one day he will read this. I am sorry for all the mistakes that I caused, my brother, but I do care bout you.

I remember at one time, I was being the smarty-pants because I got good grades during my primary schools. Now look at you my brother. You have surpassed me in any other way that you can. Congrats my brother. It is true, I do feel a bit jealous sometimes, but I am glad that you have become someone worth to our family and someone who others acknowledged. Do not become like me, keep on repeating

the same mistakes over and over again.

I love you my brother and I pray for your success doesn't matter where you are, I will be there for you if you need your older brother.

Another person that I still dont know how to appreciate is Raen. If you read my older posts then you will know who this person is. I could not say exactly why I have changed drastically. My heart seems to be empty and now I am heartless. I am not completely heartless but my sensitivity are not for her anymore but for friends. I do not know why. I am still not giving up as I am still there for her but I could not make the option. I choose to leave everything to Faith. I know others will hate me, and some of them already admitted but I still can not give them the reasons why I did this. I still cannot explain it to her.

My own words finally consumed me. You may know their stories but you will never know the reasons for that stories so stop making judgments and helps make good impressions.

I always make everything worst. I never listen to what she wants to say but now, when I give a bit of my time to her then I knew. Everyone have their own problems guys. Pay attention and try to listen. So I try to help her in any way that I knew based on my experiences. Hopefully, may God can help her and shield her from any harms in this world that is cruel by filthy humans.

Lastly, There is no fresh start:- because everytime you think this is your fresh start, you will make another fresh start all over again some day.

This is for you my brother. Singapore, 2008 :)

This one is for you Raen . Even though we are together or not, I will celebrate this moment throughout the rest of my life because you have taught me many lessons but I am still a very stubborn and arrogant person that you know ya? Arigato Gozaimas.