Writing for Distress, Change Your Ways

Hey it's been a while since I write something. I guess the joke is on me cause I have told you guys before that I will write often but then again, I failed.

One of the reasons why I failed to write is because I was trying to live my life. You know by isolating myself from social medias from anything related to virtual society. From my experiences, as Im from Y generation, modern techs and I cant be separated. Thus, as Generation Y, I learned that I need to keep balance of everything. Im living my life outdoors, hanging out with my friends, putting down my phone when we are hanging out or "lepak". The thing is Generation Y people is quite difficult to appreciate the moments, to live the moments without having the necessity to take out their phone and record everything or take picture of everything.
I try to find the reasons behind these, as what I have discovered, when something has become a routine, same as smoking, you are not actually addicted to it but rather it is your routine. To capture or record something and then post it on social medias either to have more "likes" or attention from society. That's what  I was doing before, I held myself from posting everything I do on social medias. I was trying to live the moments by just enjoying it...Of course I do take some pictures but thats for my personal keeping and not public's views. Now do you understand?
Maybe once in a while, why dont you guys just try to do like what I did. See how it goes and let me know. :)

Try listen to this hits. It can make your day.

Another story for another souls probably:-

Salam and good morning to all. Well while some of you are already sleeping, Im here, wide awake. After having a cup of coffee made in Netherlands but packet in Australia, it was quite good. Not to mention drinking coffee while eating noodles, "Mamee slurp, baru!" (Quoting from Mamee's commercial) was OK, I guess. For tonight, I wanna talk about people. Yep, I know that I have talked a lot about people but it is like an ongoing learning experience dont you think? Everyday you will see how differently or constant people's actions. 
Eg. a person woke up at 6 am, done his morning prayers, went to work,  lunch, then at 5 pm punched out from work, went home, had dinner with le family, lastly went to sleep, Repeat. 

When Im older, I dont want to be this kind of people. I want to be someone that could make changes whenever I go, someone who could make something from nothing or make something better. Of course this is only a dream but do I have what it takes to be what I said I will be? For now, Im still trying. Some of us tries so hard to be something they are not in order for them to be noticed or accepted by the community. BUT what will you do after that? Would you keep on putting that fake mask of yours that will keeps on consuming you from the inside or you will take off that mask and say, "Hey, this is not what I am so get lost!".

Im not a die hard fan of football but I know a lil bit cause my family is really into football and bowling. So as a growing teen, the topics that keep recurring are either football, games or relationships which are Im quite fond. I met some people that rather stay inside their comfort zone, if they cant join with certain topics, they will make expression of rejections and will never try to mix with that group of people that came up with the topics. What I wanna point out is why dont you try to mix in and see how it goes. Some people tried and you guys wanna know the result? It was funny because they didnt do it because they like it or wanna do it but because they have to. Because they want to feel belonging in that group and they tried so hard just to be accepted by them.
Eg. they dont like something but when their group wanted to do it or what ever, suddenly they can came up with lots of info about it. I was like, "Wow, you really did your homework.", but deep down we all know the truth. You are what you are :)

Then when they have been accepted, they forgotten the people that supports them and push them to help them be better than what they were before. Suddenly they cant tolerate with people's mistakes and advices. Suddenly what ever others say, if "they" dont like it, the others are forever wrong. Instead of trying to understand the situations, what, why, how, NO! If "they" dont like it, then so be it, regardless if others were friends or foes.

A piece of advice, dont let your egos blind your judgments. Open up your mind a lil bit and understand every situations that occur in your life. Life is far more about you and I but more about them. Who are "them"? Well "them"  are everyone and everything. :) 

This is the coffee.

2014:-

Salam and good evening to all. 2013 has passed and now it is time for a new year, new goals and yet the same old me. For these past few months of my absent, I have been observing most things in life and yet all I can say is I am very disappointed and yet thankful. There are too many things that I wanna share and yet so little time.
-If I say like this you can pinch me or what so ever cause I keep on telling people that we control time and not the other way around.

So for today Im gonna start with one of my goals for this year:- I will stop dwelling with the things that I can't change anymore.
For these past few years all I did was keep on taking in people's craps that they can not change due to their own flaws. They did not even try and yet they already assumed the consequences. Life is all about taking risks and chances, if you never ever try to put up with the challenges given to you, how would you gonna learn and be someone better than you have ever been?
I really hate these kind of people that keep on saying "Im sorry Im not good enough, not a good friend and etc." Well if you are not good enough, why dont you try to be better? Instead of keep blaming yourself and then repeat the same mistakes. I call it stupid.

It is not like I hate them 100% or something, I hate them for not being able to keep on trying and just gave up half the way knowing they have failed and yet they can embrace it like it was something they were destined to be. Let me tell you a story about how I try for the SUKMA's selection. I, 20 years old, and it was my first time entering such huge competition. I think that I was too old for this kind of stuff but my coach told me that I should gain the experience eventhough deep down I know I wouldnt stand a chance. It was held at Pasir Gudang Bowling, Daiman Bowling and lastly at Summit, Batu Pahat. 3 days, 3 places, 30 games!!! Do you know how crazy and tiring that was?! The first 2 days I was at the bottom in male's category. I was beaten by most of the kids below my age and even GIRLS! even the lowest ranked girl managed to score higher than me. I kept on thinking of giving up but I kept my faith high and I knew God will help me if I try my best.

On the last day, they announced that the players will be grouped based on ranks, so automatically I will be on the last lane cause Im the last. When they were announcing each player's name, suddenly during my turn, they highlighted "AND LASTLY, Abdul Rasyid..." but they didnt highlight the last girl. I could see they smirked at me. Did I gave up? No, I felt really fired up and I want to prove them that their arrogance will kill them. I know I was worst cause will you ever meet any SUKMA's selection candidates that score 100-130. Apparently you will not cause that was only me! We suppose to maintain average of 180+ and my average were 123 and 132 LMAO! Our games were divided by 2 phases, 6 in the morning and 6 more in the evening = 12 games. The first 6 games were my best! First I scored 135 and I was a bit disappointed but then I tried again and thus I managed to get 175, 192, 224, 168, and 17+. My average is 178. I returned my score sheet to the person in charged. I can see from the look on their face, they were quite shocked! HAHAHA in your face jerk! *I said to myself lah of course :D*

Then after we finished our breaks, we continued for the next round. This round I dropped a lil bit but still I kept my consistency. My scores were 150+, 190+, 170+, 150+,150+ and 134. I think so, I didnt managed to screenshot the score sheet cause my phone ran out of power. My total average for the whole 12 games if Im not mistaken was 160+. You know, the persons that laughed at me before stood behind my lane and I can see they were watching me, maybe they were thinking I was cheating. At the end of the day, my scores couldnt cover up the first 2 days but I was not at the bottom, I was number 3 from bottom which to me was quite impressive cause I practiced for only 16 days while they have been played since they were so young.

The point is you should never lose your faith and keep on trying. For 16 days I have failed and couldnt even get 150+ consistently but still I went to the tournament and tried. SO dont give excuses for the things that you know you can change and work hard, play hard, live.... well. :D

thanks for reading this long post. Here's a potato. -9Gag

Improvement for myself:-

Assalamualaikum and a very good morning to all. Today I want to talk about almost everything :D. I have told you guys before that I would actively writing new posts but as you can see from the last post of mine which was a bit long time ago, I still can not commit myself to fully writing blog. As you can see, I am not a person that would waste my time talking nonsense. I created this blog with great ambition which is to spread my ideas to those who read my blog. I feel like I am gonna start my own empire where my ideas can be accepted by people in this world. What ideas would that be hurm? Well for example, I would like to change the perspectives of people that would simply discriminate and judge others based on their race, wealth and so much more. I live in a multi-racial country and I hope for the best in it but most of the people nowadays seem to disrespect others. We have law here, we have the constitutions that were agreed during the creation of Malaysia. The way I see it, those people who understand the concept of why constitutions are created tends to be more respectful towards others and yet become successful with his own hardwork to achieve what he is today.

As you can see today, most people are born with hatred to discriminate with or without the effects of the constitutions. It is like people are trying to find the reasons to start a war between race in this country. We can achieve so much better just with respect and harmony. I admit Malaysia will not be improved as what it is today without the help of its countrymen but people, are you willing to bring back the tragedy that almost destroyed the harmony that most of us trying to create? If you give the reason that other race is being bullied or being brought down by my race, by the constitution, then why most of my friends that are not my race already became successful. When I ask them, they do not care about race or constitution, they only care for their future which is why they struggling in their studies, getting straight A's during school and now they have been offered with tons of scholarships with their own hardwork. If the peace and harmony that we have now are broken, it will not only satisfy your hatred and desire to destroy the constitution but Malaysia, its own, will be torn apart and might not even call a country anymore. Do you want such consequences to happen? I love having multi-racial friends, I could even improve my language skills with them as you all know, most of my race speak in "Bahasa Malaysia". See, we even not call it "Bahasa Melayu" anymore. I sincerely can tolerate with others for the greater good but please respect the boundaries that have been created in the constitution that's all I ask my friends :)

This is a breakfast for your mind. Try to think about it, take a second or even more to think what would we be if we are not bound by laws and boundaries.

Fools to those who do not learn but stupid is those who can not accept fools are better. 

Teenagers:-

Assalamualaikum, and a very good evening dearest readers. Hahah sounds a bit formal eh? Well I know I said that I would update my blog regularly but as you all know, being a university student is quite stressful and I did not have enough time of doing many things that I wanted to do. For now after a long break from blogging well here I am today.

I would like to share about my opinions regarding our youths nowadays. As we all know, youths these days are getting worst and worst. For example, everybody have their own facebook account am I right? and you all can join into variety of groups that are presented there. I am in a group. I will not mention the group's name but I want to express my deepest regret for the people inside that group. There was this person, a girl, who posted her pictures almost half naked and you can see the part of her chest. The thing that really bothers me was nobody in that group tryied to advice her or "bash" her for posting such almost nude picture. Boys and girls, all they commented was "oh so nice body", "oh so sexy", and I was like wtf man. This group should be appropriate for teens and these kind of circumstances really gets on my nerve. So, I did my part, I commented on her pictures by giving a little bit of advice, twice actually and yet most of the people there trying to argue with me but the thing about me is whenever I think I am right, I would stand up for my opinions until the very end. The last thing I could remember was most of the members there, still praising this "cheap" girl and this girl does not feel offended at all by my sarcasms. BUT, I respect the admin of this group. Later on, I noticed that the admin also did not like these kind of events and he directly deleted the post and any other related posts. Faith in Humanity has been RESTORED. >_<

I know that nowadays many girls like to post their nude pictures but what really pissed me off is the girls are mostly, ISLAM! I am not a very Religious person but whenever I want to commit sins, I would keep it between me and Allah and I will try not to show it publicly or directly to people. Well maybe sometimes I showed it but not like this. Not from posting directly on media where the whole world can see me committed sins and inappropriate stuffs. We are the eastern people, so come on. We should not followed what the western people do. We have our pride and dignity. If you wanted to do something awful or bad, make sure you keep it between yourself. I really pity for these kind of persons and the mentality of the people around them.

One more thing that I noticed, was most of the time, people would like to comment on trash, nude, or stupid jokes status compared to religious or advices-kind of status. Come on people. WHERE DID YOU PUT YOUR MIND AT??

Btw, another thing that really makes me laugh is when I see most of the youths trying to short-formed every words and they sound completely like a retard. I am sorry for my disrespectful word but why do you have to put everything so unnecessarily short? Is it wrong to type in a complete sentences? Well that is all for today my friend. If my words offended some of you, I am sorry but a piece of advice, "Do learn from other people's mistake so you will not commit yours".  

Loneliness:-

Today, I want to share about my mistake. The same mistake that I kept doing over and over again. Letting go of someone who truly understands me because....I still dont know what I want. Now, I'm left all alone. I have some problems with a few of my friends. I don't know what's wrong because suddenly they treated me differently. When we met, we usually talked and laughed or atleast they would noticed me but suddenly a few days ago I noticed, they seems to ignore me. If I have done something offensive atleast they could tell me but do not treat me like this.  Everything seems to fall apart and as each day passed, I seems to care less about anything anymore. When I care less about something, I thought I would be happier, but NO! I feel empty and dying inside.

I don't want to share my problems with anyone cause there is nobody that worth sharing except that 1 person whom I have left. I could not lie, that some parts of me still think about her even most of me just want to let her go. Who am I kidding, I am such a jerk. Right now, I have lost a few friends due to my straight-forward honesty. I told them about how they should treat others properly. Don't take people for granted and find them just when you need something. Maybe they couldn't accept the fact of having a friend like myself that told them about their mistakes. I did that so they would not make the same mistakes that I made, instead all they saw was I am not a good friend. I heard a quote, "Do not chase people who you want to spend time with, if they want to spend their time with you, you wont be chasing".

People always mistaken our intentions. Sometimes when we are doing the right thing, people often look it as a fault. We can not pleased these kind of people so what we should do? Just pray for their happiness :)
Talk is easy but do we have courage to act? DO we have the courage to just ignore the people that once close to us and DO we have the courage to just let them walk away knowingly they are at fault? The truth is, I do not. I keep hoping that everything will be ok again or they will change. One thing I want to remind us all, What goes around, Comes around. The pain, the suffering that I caused to Raen, are now returning back to me. I accept my weaknesses which I could not be grateful most of the time, that is why you are better off without me.

You may see me smiling, may see me happy with the people I call "friends" but truthfully, I am not. My happiness has perished since the day I realized to let you go. My trust to people has decreased but my hope never dies. I keep on hoping every single day for things to turn out just fine. Hoping to have friends with Benefits and not for Benefits and hoping to make you happy again like the 1st time when you were with me.
The term "friends" does not refer to my high school friends or my childhood friends ya. They all ROCK!

Deep down, I am glad that people could use me. I could make others happy even they using me for their own interests. Maybe it is my duty to give happiness to others while losing mine. Hopefully, you can see how I feel inside and not how I act. I am sorry for my post being dull and unhappy, but hey, this is me. My emotions can easily changed and that is why some people call me over sensitive. DO remember sensitive is hard to find these days. From sensitive, we will know how to treat others respectfully and thoughtfully, from sensitive we will know how to appreciate other people, but this sensitivity is what people call weaknesses and that is why they avoided people who are sensitive. They all wanted a friend that can have fun all the time, but without sensitivity how would you find someone that will be there when you are in grief and sad? How awfully stupid.

Regret:-

Good day peeps and Salam to my Muslims' brothers and sisters. This fasting month I am sure many of you are excited for the upcoming Hari Raya. Have you guys bought your Baju Raya? I am sure I have :D.

Anyway today I am gonna share a bit about myself again. Well it is my blog...right? XD Ermm well actually I have lost for a while. It's kindda weird when at one time you have all the ideas that you want to share but then when you have the chance to share it, you have no idea what are you gonna say. Ok as appetizers I am gonna share you some feedback I received from my friends and readers. Many of my friends asked me why does my posts mostly in English. Simple,my aim is nationwide readers. Hahahaha I know it is funny but that's the thing. I want my posts to be read by all the people in this world and who knows one day I will be rich and famous. I hope that my post might help others to think differently about this world, about their lives and how they see life. I dont care about what other people said about my blog, I take them as compliments and lessons for me to improve. I love to speak in English as I said in my previous posts. Whenever you write in English, the meaning can be diverse and it is hard for people to interpret what you are actually saying so they need to understand a bit more and focus on what you have said. Aren't that FUN! :D

By the way, you guys might noticed my blog is simple and maybe outdated, old fashioned or what so ever but the thing about me is that, I prefer to live old school style because I really miss the old days, I live by the memories of the past so my presents will still be my past and my future will cherish my past and have a bit of it.

Life tips my friend, never put your trust in someone unless he or she is your family. Never ever truly trust someone until they become part of your life. People is good with words but not many can stick to what they said. I admit I am one of them. :(

Based on my experiences, I noticed that people tend to forget those who are always there with them through ups and downs when they have met new friends but I AM NOT LIKE THAT! The thing that's really hurts me is when I am trying to be the best friend ever but then my friends treat me completely the other way around. Most of them will find me whenever they need something or when they are lonely. Perhaps....this is my what I should deserve for all the Sinsthat I had committed. Doesn't matter how far I go, I would never escape my pasts.

I used to be a carefree person until one day, I become more sensitive from time to time. It really hurts when there is no term for "friend in need is the best friend indeed".

Sometimes I get jealous whenever I see some of my friends that have friends-forever type of friends. Get it? :D

I am still thankful for having such good friends even they are not as many as other people have.

p/s: Sorry for many grammatical errors. I am still improving my English and hopefully I can be more fluent to speak and write in this magnificent language :)

2011, my old schoolmates. Miss you all.

2011, first year in Universiti Teknologi Mara (UiTM).

2010, final year of high school. :D

2010, during physical education.

2010, FINAL EXAMS FOR FINAL YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL! :D

2009, Annual Scout Dinner with starts from left, Azim, Safwan and ME! :D

There is no fresh start:-

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak my friends and Happy Fasting.

Greetings peeps. It has been a while since my last post ya. I mean it is really a while! There are so many things that happen to me these past few months. Everyday is a new adventure aye? but my adventures are not quite amusing. I have gone through a lot since i was little. I have faced many social problems but I still can stand till this very fine day. What I want to say for today is that why I could never learn to appreciate what I have and now all hopes seems lost.

My brother has furthered his studies in US, and I could not come to send him at the airport because I was having my lectures. Now, I regret for not being there to see him. Eventhough, we always argue when we were little but as we get olde

r, all that arguments were memories that needed to be cherish. Sometimes I feel a bit awkward when I am having a conversation with my brother because we never had real conversations until we all finished our high schools. Why? Well during high school, he attended boarding school and I was just in a normal, standard high school. I really miss being a kid again but I know my wish will never be granted until the day I die. What ever happens, I do love my brother very much. I could not say this to him directly cause he will feel a bit uneasy but what the hec

k, I post it here, so maybe one day he will read this. I am sorry for all the mistakes that I caused, my brother, but I do care bout you.

I remember at one time, I was being the smarty-pants because I got good grades during my primary schools. Now look at you my brother. You have surpassed me in any other way that you can. Congrats my brother. It is true, I do feel a bit jealous sometimes, but I am glad that you have become someone worth to our family and someone who others acknowledged. Do not become like me, keep on repeating

the same mistakes over and over again.

I love you my brother and I pray for your success doesn't matter where you are, I will be there for you if you need your older brother.

Another person that I still dont know how to appreciate is Raen. If you read my older posts then you will know who this person is. I could not say exactly why I have changed drastically. My heart seems to be empty and now I am heartless. I am not completely heartless but my sensitivity are not for her anymore but for friends. I do not know why. I am still not giving up as I am still there for her but I could not make the option. I choose to leave everything to Faith. I know others will hate me, and some of them already admitted but I still can not give them the reasons why I did this. I still cannot explain it to her.

My own words finally consumed me. You may know their stories but you will never know the reasons for that stories so stop making judgments and helps make good impressions.

I always make everything worst. I never listen to what she wants to say but now, when I give a bit of my time to her then I knew. Everyone have their own problems guys. Pay attention and try to listen. So I try to help her in any way that I knew based on my experiences. Hopefully, may God can help her and shield her from any harms in this world that is cruel by filthy humans.

Lastly, There is no fresh start:- because everytime you think this is your fresh start, you will make another fresh start all over again some day.

This is for you my brother. Singapore, 2008 :)

This one is for you Raen . Even though we are together or not, I will celebrate this moment throughout the rest of my life because you have taught me many lessons but I am still a very stubborn and arrogant person that you know ya? Arigato Gozaimas.

Holiday Almost Over:-

I have been longing to write for so long but I am quite busy with my holiday. The 1st week of it, I was like, "Oh, why is it so boring. Most of my friends are not yet semester break ". Now, I hope that I could turn back time and enjoy my holiday once again but what can we humans do. Time will always envy us or... are we the one envy time? This Saturday or maybe Sunday, I will be going back to my campus to start my second semester. I hope this time I can enjoy myself with studies, friends and of course the queen of my heart.

The thing is that, I really miss my family and I do not want to be apart from them eventhough I spend most of my time with them. I just wish this holiday will continue.. I feel very sad and sorrow cause I did not get the chance to reunite with all my friends and with my love one as well. My final exams result is quite ok in my 1st semester. I hope I can achieve more during this semester. But.. something has been bothering me lately. Should I or should I not drop at least two subjects for this semester?

Why? This is because I want my timetable to be more relaxing and I can spend a bit more time with other stuff. I have asked a few people that I know and each and every one of them gave me different answers. In the end, it is up to me to choose what is best for me. I think, I can live with another 2 semester which total up to 7 semester I will be studying there. The thing is that, I am afraid to be alone. If i have some friends with me, then I can be in the same class as them during our 6th and 7th semester. Hurmmmm I really need someone or something to boost my spirit to choose the right way. If I do this, will I be a better person and achieve more remarkable results?

Hopefully.... but now I really miss everything.... I miss them and U ( Raen ) so much...
Love is so beautiful thing and it gives us something to remember, to do, to think even to forget. But I will never forget.

The Butterfly Effect :-

Last night, I watched this movie called The Butterfly Effect. First impression of this movie was it would be a comedy type of movie. Then when it keeps on going, I suddenly focused more on the storyline as it was really interesting. This movie is about a boy named Jason who frequently blackout when at peak moments or when he feels too stressful. So, when he was aware, he could not remember anything that happened during his blackout. He wrote what he could remember before and after the blackout in a journal so he could recall it when he is aware but it was a failed plan. He also has a dream girl named Kayleigh. >_<

Few years later, which he had became a college's student. He did not have that misfortune disease anymore. Until one day, when a girl that he wanted to get laid with, found his journals that he kept under his bed in his college's room. The girl asked him to read his journals and when he read it, suddenly his room began to shake and he went back to his memory that he could not remember when he was a kid. He thought that this was just a flashback until one of the memory where he dropped his cigarette on his cloth, the smoking embers left a scar near his stomach. When he woke up, he realized that he could change his past to alter his present day.
This is when the interesting parts begin....

I could write down all the story lines and spoil the movie but I think, I leave it to you guys to watch and judge this movie. I rate this movie 10/10. Why? Because this movie has three endings. YEP, it has three endings. This movie taught you that history will be repeated unless you do something to change you own history but to change a single history, you will change everything and everything in this world are connected like a line of network. In fact, I learnt that you need to value the beauty of love. This movie is so amazing that it leads to tears in my eyes.

Here is the link to download the movie (Director's cut) and its subtitle also can be found here. [MediafireLink]













DO NOT READ THIS, THIS IS MOVIE [SPOILER]!
Well I am too excited that is why i want to share with you the ending of the movie. Do not get angry with me ya, it just that this movie makes me want to shout out loud so the whole world know how great this movie is.

1st ending:
A few years after all of the sad tragedies and time traveling, Jason was talking to his mother and suddenly Kayleigh passed him by. She stopped and turned around because she felt that she kindda knows him. Jason also stopped and turned around to watch her as he could never forget her. Then, they move on while Jason can not stop thinking about her and Kayleigh still can not recall whether she knows him or not. This is kind of a sad ending cause Jason realized that all the hardships Kayleigh faced were because of him. She told him that if she move out with her mother, she would never meet Jason. That is why Jason told Kayleigh when he was in the past that, if she try to talk to him, he will murder her family. In the present, they never become friends and all of Jason' friends turned out just fine including Kayleigh.

2nd ending:
A few years after all of the sad tragedies and time traveling, Jason was talking to his mother and suddenly Kayleigh passed him by. She stopped and turned around because she felt that she kindda knows him. Jason also stopped and turned around to watch her as he could never forget her. BUT, this time, Jason smiles towards her. Then, she asked him whether they have known each other before. So, Jason asked her to have a cup of coffee together to continue the conversations and she agrees.
This is a happy ending cause hopefully they will be together again.

3rd ending ( Director's Cut only ):
This is the saddest ending ever and I cried at the end of this movie. After he was aware from his last time traveling, he woke up in a hospital. They declared him insane because he accidentally murdered Kayleigh in the past. He could not accept the fact and tried to create his own fantasy about his journals and all that. Then, he realized that all of this happen because of him. Everything that affected the people around him and all the misfortunes were caused by him. When the doctor was talking to his mother, Jason asked her that can he borrow the video of his mother giving birth to him. That night, he sneaked out from his room and went to the doctor's office and watched the video. He went back to the past where his mother is giving birth to him. He IS INSIDE HIS MOTHER WOMB! He suffocate himself using his umbilical cord. At the end, he died and so was his 2 brothers before him. Which means that, he has 2 brothers before him and they all decided the same thing as he did which is suicide. Lastly, his mother give birth to a girl and all his childhood' friends turn out just fine and Kayleigh is happily married. Remember what the psychic told him? He is soulless and should never been born.

My comment:-
Every actions will have its own consequences and you decide your own future. Appreciate what you have and try to be someone worth it. Help others with good intentions and practices good behavior. Good things come to good people and vice versa. Emotional is really a good thing for a human being.

Free games to download:-

Recently I found out that many of us are having difficulty to download the latest games because most of it required payment before you get the link to download it. Well for now, i just found out this website that gives free download link for most latest games available. In Malaysia, as we all know that, the government has banned most websites that give out pirated games for free. When you click on the website such as www.piratebay.org , you will find that there is problem to load the page. The only website that I found that still usable and act as a medium to download files is through www.mediafire.com.

Even the most commonly known www.megaupload.com, also has been banned. In other words, if you want to download free games or something you must download it using torrent or if want to direct download, you need to use mediafire. Back to the topic, here is the website to download free games but I am not sure if it is working 100% because sometimes the .iso file is corrupt which prevent you from combine all the .iso files.

www.topfreepcgames.com

Mediafire gives you the file in .iso but compressed in .rar type. If you do not know what is .iso type try search at google Ultraiso then download it and install. The instructions are simple. To extract the .rar files you must use Winrar application. This also can be found using google ya. Then when you finish downloading all the .rar files, you must know how to combine it to create a single .iso file. Then you must mount that .iso file at your cddrive E: or others related to it.

Here is the link at youtube how to combine the .rar files. ->Link
Here is the link at youtube how to use the Iso thingy. ->Link
Here is the link to check whether the .iso file or the .rar file is broken. ->Link

I prefer to direct download cause it is more easy when you have Internet Download Manager, IDM. IDM basically let you download with higher speed and better it can pause or resume the download so whenever you are disconnected from the internet, you are still can resume your downloads. This also you must search for the right IDM cause now many of it must be paid before you can use it. The best of IDM that you can find is at youtube.

If you have further question feel free to ask whether through comments or my chatbox ya.

Endless:-

Currently I am not feeling very well as my cold getting worst and I am really dizzy but I try to write because I am tired with all the burdens that I carry. The truth is that my relationship with Mrs. Gucci is getting harder and harder as we move on longer. I do not know what happen to us lately. Everything seems not working with us. There is always something to argue about and in the end we both were hurt. I do not know what happen to me. I am not blaming anyone but then again why keep on saying I do. When I want to stop the fight, why there is something more and more to fight with.

All I can say is that, I never stop giving you my heart, my love and everything that you ever wanted and I hope it is enough for you. I do not know what else could you possibly want. Even though, my headache is getting worst but I still want to finish this so I hope you will read this. I did not call does not mean I forget you or I do not care about you, I do but due to some circumstances I prefer to text you. Appreciate everything that you have even the smallest thing that you own and stop asking for more than what you should have. Even it just a text message, I still show you how much I care about you. We should not have this fight and we can be OK as we always have. Please do not think that you are the only one that make all the sacrifices while I am just sitting there and watch you do all the things that we should do together.

I cannot continue cause I am very exhausted right now. Remember and remember the things we always say to each other, nevertheless forget what we had through these years, my love for you knows no boundaries but my soul and my life are not immortal, for the times I have and for the sins I committed I despise myself.

For the people that I have hurt and I have disappoint I am truly ashamed for you to call me a friend, lover and what so ever that you can call me. I am very sorry for everything and I wish I could turn back time so I wont hurt anyone else and just be alone as what I am deserved.

True love is letting she/he goes so he/she can be happier. Now I understand what it means actually.

This songs are for you to hear if you want:
1) Staind - So far away
2) Nickelback - So far away
3) Yellowcard - Only one

Click at the title of the songs to hear the songs.

Food Emulsifiers:-

Good day my dearest readers. Today I want to share some info's about food emulsifiers codes that start with E. Most of us have been confused whether this code represent pig fat or not. Thus, here are the links that I found can be trusted for Muslims and vegetarians.

This is not a virus, malware or what so ever links that you thought I would provide but it is a link that I searched for myself and I hope it would be helpful to you guys.

1st: Click here.

2st: Click here.

My comment:
As a Muslim, we must eat Halal food only and other than that will be considered
as illicit or Haram. We must uphold our religion and in other to do that, we can start by changing our daily food consumed according to our religion. I just realized this matter after one of my friends posted about this topic. So, i did my research for further information regarding this matter.

Lovesick over again:-

Today I am not feeling very well as I was dizzy last night. I think it was because I ate the wrong food or something. Well today I want to talk about love. I know maybe some of you might think that I am weird or a love-freak but this is my specialty. I love to watch other couples' reactions toward each other and I could sit all day long in a place where there is a lot of people. My hobby is I like to watch them cause it makes me happy as I sit there alone and watch them do their thing.

When I look at them, I realized that does not matter who you are, beauty or beast, there is always someone for you. Once, I went to Sunway Pyramid, I really enjoyed my time there cause I love to play ice skating and bowling. In fact, the reason I love to go there cause there are variety of couples including foreigners. So when i was walking around, I watched them, their attitude, the way they treat their love one, and other people that was walking passed me. We always heard that love is blind and it is true. When you are in love with someone, you will put aside their lack of something and you will look up at them.

It is a reality that even the most strongest man in earth will become soft-hearted when he is persuaded by a woman. It was meant to be that man and woman is dependent on each other. Love can also mean that you always there when they needed you the most but to show them that you care, think wisely what action should you carry out. One thing for sure, if he does not want to be disturb, just give him time a little bit.

Remember: Do not ever lose faith in your love one, does not matter what the outcomes, always believe that love is a very powerful feelings.

You must know that man's ego is very high and thus when he is being stubborn, just be there for him when he needed you. Example, there is someone whom I know that at one time, he was heading back to his room after finished his dinner with his friends. He just got back from a food stall and suddenly he felt dizzy and threw up a lot. He thought that it was food poisoning so he just sit next to the road until he can continue. Then his lover called him, he already informed her that he was sick and he can not answer her call for a while. This is where things getting harder.

She kept calling him while he was threw up. Even you want to show him that you care, do not be like this. So, he answered her call and they started to argue. He do not want to be disturb because he felt uncomfortable to answer her call while he was threw up thus he explained to her properly. He told her that she can call him back after he reached his room so she must be patient and should just wait but still, she kept calling him over and over again thinking that he was lying. She thought that my friend here was having a date or something because she heard girls' voices. He was sitting next to the road in his college so what do you expect? Many people are going through that road.

When he was at his rage, he gave his phone to his friends so that his girlfriend would believe him but better yet it was getting worst as his girlfriend started to change the topic and kept asking why he gave his phone to his friend and did not answer her question himself. HE DID! Lastly, he told her that please do not be a burden to him and she misinterpreted his words by thinking that he considered her to be a burden and he wanted to break up. Actually, when someone already told you honestly that he is not feeling well and does not want to have a conversation, respect him and just wait until he is OK.

Man will always find his woman back even he is at the top of his ego and still do not want to show that he yielded the fight. That is why in a fight, woman must believe that his man will still be together with her, just wait until he cools down a little bit moreover when they have been together since they can remember.

To felt in love and to be loved is a wonderful feelings and we must treasure it the most. Be grateful to god that because of these feelings we still have our humanity towards each other. With love, we can change many things from war to peace and from rage to forgiveness. Honestly, humans are always greedy once they have something, they always wanted more than what they should have. This is a reality and same goes to me..the difference is how you control your greediness and for that sometimes I failed...not sometimes I mean most of the time. I wish I could change myself to be someone better for me, and for everything that involved ME in it. Hopefully, one day I can be true to myself and the people that I know.

"I always remember the things you always forget", she always told me that and yet I still believe that we both remember the things that we both thought we have forgotten. +_+

My point of view:-

Now lets talk about something that I think is worth my time. My point of view regarding the people that I meet along my way of becoming an adult. There are many people that each one of them have their own unique traits. What I want to say is about the people I dislike in this case I call them 'AGAS'. 'AGAS' is a term that was created by most teens in our country to call a group of people which uncivilized based on their actions toward others.

Get the picture? Well lets take an example. When you are walking towards the mall or a place of attractions, do you notice a group of people that sit on a bench or sit anywhere that can be seated and just stare at you as you are walking along the way until you can no longer be seen by them? This is what we call 'AGAS'. In fact, these 'AGAS' will make loud noises that disturb others such as laughing or talking as loud as they can, criticize other people as they are passing by and so much more.

I am not a fashion police but in a mall where it is a place that are not too bright unlike outdoors with the scorching sun, do you need to wear those black sunglasses? Well if you have squinting eyes then I understand how you feel but for those 'AGAS', they thought that wearing those sunglasses will make them look matured and can be considered as adult. If your actions are childish and really irritating how will other people treat you differently.

Not all of the people that sit on the bench or any other places that can be seated and with groups are considered 'AGAS'. Yes that is true. Let me explain to you a little more about 'AGAS'.'AGAS' are mostly teens. You can differentiate them with other normal people based on their acts. Spit everywhere, create chaos and make loud noises, stare at other people until they feel uncomfortable better yet get drunk in public.

When i was younger, most 'AGAS' are ashamed to do these kind of actions in public but nowadays these type of people are bold enough to show their rebellion against the law and civics's rights but what can I say, as the world are moving towards high-tech era so does the population of this world. Eastern people are known for their courteous and polite manners but as you can see almost most of us have forgotten our identity as eastern people.

When you treat others politely, who knows you might help them ease their stressful days from their hustle and bustle lives. Do not take something for granted but try to appreciate everything that you have and treasure them as you will lose them tomorrow.

Something to Remember:- do not fake your feelings and pretend that you are OK while you are not. Express your feelings and be a bad actor or actress. You will feel a lot better that you still have the feelings to cry, to be sad, to get angry, to be happy. Once you lose one of these, you will miss it even more and wish you could have it back.

Total MAKEOVER!

Try To Listen and Understand (@_@)

Right now, i am lying on my bed while studying for my final exam which is tomorrow! And yet i can still blogging and listening to my favorite songs on this net book.

What i am going to talk about today is the total makeover of this blog. I created this blog as a place where me and other people can express their thoughts and feelings and why i created this blog using English language. Simple ; i want this blog to be known worldwide. I know some of you might laugh of what i just said but that is my goal for creating this blog. This does not means that i forget my own language which is Malay but someone once told me that, if you can be proficient three languages which are Malay, English and Chinese and you are also an expert of IT then you can control the world.

For that, I use English as my Linguafranca which is the main language for this blog as a practice for me to improve my English. So, if i make a mistake, do tell ya?

Back to the topic, this total makeover is because moments ago some of my friends told me, indeed it were good comments they gave me regarding about my blog which is dull and boring. With open arms and clear mind, i accepted what they told me so i try to improve my blog to be more fascinating and attractive. In order to do that, i need YOU dearest readers to give feedback which part that i am lacking with. This makeover is not yet complete, so let us not keep our hopes too high ya? :)

Work hard needs sacrifice

Hello FOLKS!

Now it is 02.01 am and i am still wide awake because tomorrow, I mean today i have a mathematics quiz. Today I want to talk about sacrifices. In order to study hard, i have to spend a lot of my time to revise on my subjects and because of that I did not spend my time with my love one. Maybe she is hurt because of this but I hope that she could understand that I am not like her.

Why? First of all, I am unreliable in managing my free time. My concept is go with the flow. If I have the mood to study then I will study.

Meanwhile, even tough she is studying she still can perform multi-tasking which are texting with me and studying. Unlike me, I can not focus on two things at once. I hope she can understand why i am busy. In other words, nothing comes cheap. In order to get something, you need to give up on something but even doing so, you must know how to really achieve what you have targeted.

That is all for now, I want to continue my study again :D

How to download videos from youtube

HELLO THERE :D

The most effective method is using IDM ( Internet Download Manager ) but to find the free version of idm is quite difficult. I only have the old version of IDM and it does not suite the new version of Firefox, IE, or even Google. There is another way which allows you to download videos from youtube without using other websites or software. It is because that when the video is buffering it actually downloading the video into your computer and it is saved into one of your computer's folder. After you found it, you must rename it to change the type of that video in .mp4 or .flv type.

Currently i am using this website to download videos from youtube. JUST CLICK THE "NO THANKS" BUTTON TO CONTINUE DOWNLOADING YOUR VIDEO. All you have to do is just copy the URL of the video at the address bar and then paste in it the column of video URL in that website. After that, you just gotta choose your desired video's format. It is better to choose .Flv format and find a video that is HD so combine these two things will give you more fantastic video's quality.

I hope these might helps those who are searching ways to download video from youtube.

Im Here without YOU baby...

Today i received a text message from a friend of my love, she sent me a note that was written by my love. Since the day i step foot in this place i have become a monster to her and yet she stood there waiting for me. This post is the least i can do to show her that i still have her heart inside of me. I am truly apologize because i make you cry, i make you sick and i did not know that you have that kind of disease. Why wont you tell me!!!

I am very sorry because i did not do what i have promised you and i am very sorry for everything that i done. I want you to know that i still loving you just the way you are and i did not hate you! I hope you will get better soon enough because it is almost Hari Raya and we promised that we will celebrate this Raya together right? To tell you the truth you are way better than me. You are the 1st person that i met that truly understand me and yet still keep on standing beside me. That is the reason why i gave me heart to you and i wish you would never return it back to me.

I pray that you getting well everyday, i pray that you will be happy each day and eventually i pray that i could be the best to you even i know that i sometimes become a monster to you. I hope you read this i hope you know that does not matter what monster have i became, i am the monster that keeps on loving you and keeps on waiting for you. I promised you that there will be a day where i will become everything that you always wanted and will make you happy without anymore mistakes.

Do you remember this song? This song is truly for you. I am very sorry dear for everything that i caused. I can speak a lot but i can done so much less. I regret for being myself and i wish i could turn back time and just be Mr.Raen that you always know. I try to be like that again dear. i promised.. I love you always Gucci a.k.a Mrs. Raen because with you i will stand for all events and hold your hands. You know and you always know that i love you, i love you all along, i miss you, so far away too far to long.

Keeps on living dear please i beg you.. keeps on moving and keeps on loving... im here. I AM HERE FOR YOU! Hold on to me never let me go...

Miss YOU bloggy!

As-SALAM to my muslims readers and peace be upon you to others.

Hello there my dearest readers. I am very for rarely.....erm...i mean totally did not online after so many months. It is because that after my biggest exam which was Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia ( SPM ), I hardly spent my free time to pamper myself or spend times with my family. I really regret that I did not spend most of my times with my family.. SOB SOB T_T.

Well right now i have furthered my studies in University which is UiTM. Before that, I got to make choice whether to continue my study at Matrix Negeri Sembilan or at private universities. Then again, if i go to private university, the expenses are quite expensive and my family is not handsomely rich unlike most of my friend. In fact, when i was doing my research, i found that nowadays most companies look forward to UiTM's graduates more than private universities.

As you all know, major private universities certificate are qualified outside Malaysia such as Singapore. So if you guys have further your studies in private U better you try to success and then go abroad to other countries outside of Malaysia ya. If you are lucky and hardworking im sure you can perform well does not matter where you are. Well that's all folks. I will tell more stories again. Now i need to sleep >_<